As I sit on my couch typing this piece, I find myself thinking about where I was and what I was doing this time a year ago. I’m reminded of just how much people and circumstances can change if life throws us a curve ball…and how the true character of a person can be seen in how they deal with difficult times. A few months ago, I felt almost certain that I would never write again. Hell, I could barely even bring myself to create anything and I was hardly speaking to anyone. But now I’m here, in the midst of the most challenging growth phase of my life thus far, daring to level up and do things that I never would have done before…
Now, for anyone who doesn’t know or is at all wondering why I pulled a ‘just going to the shop for some milk’ situation and never returned for two years, it’s because 2018 and 2019 were pretty difficult and erratic years for me on all fronts – but especially for my heart. Between trying to get out of a long-term abusive relationship and jumping all in to another complicated one where I was left heartbroken, I kind of lost my way and my inspiration.
But now, after months of focusing on healing and FINALLY putting myself first, I’ve gathered every bit of strength I have to start writing again. I suppose if I had to find the silver linings surrounding the mess that was 2018 / 2019, it would be these:
• I bought and moved into my own place in 2019 and owning a flat/living alone has been one hell of an experience filled with learning curves.
• After putting others first for as long as I can remember, I’m now finally taking the time to focus mainly on self-care and self-love.
• After my last relationship ended, I was deeply hurt and very angry with God for a while, but now I’m trying to work on building those bridges of faith again.
• I’m experiencing a lot of ‘firsts’ at a time when I felt like any trace of my adventurous spirit had left me. I’m venturing out on my own more and making new memories.
• I’ve gotten to see who my real ride-or-die friends are and realised that you’re never too old to make amazing new ones.
• My literary muse has finally returned and I’m really excited to write some new content for you that is inspired by my experiences. Hopefully it will help you along on your wellness journey.
And that’s about it. More details about certain experiences will probably be revealed in future posts, but for now, I think we’re pretty much all caught up.
Damn, it feels good to be back.